Posted by: Sk | February 20, 2009

Fixation of identity in low lines

Different points

1. What our awareness catches are impressions that come through senses and are linked somehow to a certain number of statements appearing to consciousness. That is a fact.

From the point of view of knowledge we may say that we can say to know either that what is corresponding as statement to a fact (It’s raining, if it is) or a conclusion a priori deriving of logical operations (If it rains I get wet).

Inside of this, it is possible to differentiate different levels of apprehension among which the formal patterns allowing to order impressions after having having named them.

The distinction of  a realm of soul from a realm of understanding results of the observation that the awareness of essences builds up intelligible fabrics inside of which a faculty called generally intuition operates which up to a certain extent escapes the logical functions of understanding.

The logic ordering intuition is thus different, arborescent and intercommunicative. To give a picture of what arborescent means, it is just to order a certain number of texts under a ‘category’. These texts are all formal, but they refer horizontally to other texts through the contents. It is possible to think the individual as a ‘category’ linked to others through a contents reference.

Is consciousness aware of this fact, it may on top differentiate different levels where ‘intuition’ is ordered. Upper lines: intuition ordered in thought. Middle lines: intuition ordered in ‘tales’ or ‘stories’. Lower lines: intuition ordered in sexual lines or lines of death.

Usually or lately upper lines are ordered inside of structures of understanding that usually help to order outer reality but are not very helpful in order to order what arises of the realm of soul.

Briefly it is possible to say that intuition is the human faculty of perceiving psychic interaction inside (direct perception) or outside (through tones of voices or behaviour or esthetical arrangement) of outer parameters and interact with it through what could be called a ‘moral’ entity. Moral entity implies that the specific legislation determining soul’s structure can be ‘confused’ or ‘not confused’ and if it is not, allowing a much clearer perception of psychic interactions than if it is confused.

It can be thought that general memory in ‘chips’ is kept by individuals linking them to each other through a specific codification. It is possible to think consequently that it is possible to establish a relationship to ‘death’ in this that it is parts of a general memory, or even real, through a determined logic.

2. What means a codification of identity in low lines? Inside of the a general frame allowing to think that thought is ordered inside of patterns that are corresponding to a sexual interaction in image, and reason kept inside of parameters having an exact image in some kind of sexual interaction, it is possible to say that the essential logic determining someone’s identity can be fixed in a simple image refering itself to a type of sexual interaction.

This frame is built up on the simple observation that a word establishes a relationship to its meaning or conveyed message that orders itself simply inside of the same schemes than sexual relationships. Is taken as basis of observation that a man stands for a word and a woman for its meaning, then it is possible to fix a certain number of deviations in the transmission of rationality that may be more or less justified.

Taking this as reference it may be possible to say that the human shows a disposition to keep rational parameters expressing itself inside of the possibility of linking himself to another through the same means reason is kept in intellectual realms.

It can be said, also, that the fact of refusing such ‘destiny’ breaks the relationship to reason inside of the human, the nature of the refusal being furthermore coded again in lower lines, the human establishing from then on a relationship of repression towards this logic, letting the world impose on him parameters of reason through what is commonly called ‘image’ or ‘appearance’.

Is the human incapable of perceiving outer pressure as imposing parameters of reason anymore, his ‘I’ falls into lower realms, becoming thus an active psychopath.

The division of an awareness into what it wants  to deal with and what it doesn’t want to deal with, constructs two types of reality, of which the first makes the socially organized one, and the other an almost inintelligible mass of repressed information more or less ruling on the first through the given codes of identity.

As example of a codification in low lines is developed the logic of the so called ‘lieutnant general’: if someone inherits of patterns of understanding that can be structured under the general and very approximative category of male, that is to say, having pushed the ‘I’ towards patterns of understanding in relation to those of soul and not the other way round, it will almost necessarily associate its sexual determination to the outer appearance. If it is a woman, ‘she’ will say she is a woman.

The patterns of understanding are though ‘male’. For a woman the person is reacting inside of male patterns and for herself and the rest of male, it is still a woman. The structure of ordering reality deriving of a somewhat schizoid environment, becomes intelligible almost only inside of a sexual image that gives a clear picture of the consequent way of ordering it.

Manual of a soldier fixes exactly this case inside of these patterns: the psychic identity ‘male’ is in prison (has no outer reality) accused of something he has never done (a deviation) and interacts with the ‘female’ appearance through the link of an accident, inside of a misunderstanding where the one saying something, this is understood by the other in such ways that it produces a consequence that could not have been thought of otherwise. These are the patterns through which reason is obtained inside of this specific configuration inside of a necessarily extremely narcissistic relation: the male is yourself towards the female who is yourself, too, as the male has determined the female is identifying, determinining though the reality of the one from ‘behind’ as it is not assumed as proper reality while it has though had the power to determine what is identifying.

What appears is the overwhelming presence of a ‘male soul’ that annihilates the male as physically determined “this foam is just good to write your name with it”: what is said it worthless and consequently even the identification as woman.

This is determining a very ambivalent general frame of behaviour. An ambivalent frame of behaviour is always dangerous and if it is dangerous, it becomes interesting.

3. The fixation of one type in low lines allows the more general understanding of a general unconscious where masses of information are transmitted inside of ‘lines’ (more or less similarily coded identities), mostly determining what happens in the world.

Taking into consideration that it has not yet been established whether ‘Sask’ exists or not, its codification in low lines is nothing but a construction allowing to build up an environment where the presence of the one is necessarily going to determine someone’s behaviour even more so if it feels the danger coming out of the unconscious someone may be tracking these lines and make them appear on the surface.

This construction leads quickly to the conclusion that ‘Sask’ will commit suicide at around 40, exactly the moment when she will leave the army and may, if no brack is put to it, make of it a national kamikaze adventure. It’s nothing but a question of logic.

I don’t like my characters commiting suicide because it doesn’t allow building up a positive environment, without which you get necessarily depressed.

The fact my own brain functions are put under highest pressure in 1994, implies the ‘I’ shifts towards the psychic fabrics as determined before and starts bathing inside of a general unconscious, which, to be very honest, doesn’t look very nice. From 1994 until 2003 intuition is intelligently ordered inside of a psychopathetic language, this being possible because determining formal patterns have been kept save before it all happened.

The world looks different from that perspective but finishes by being as interesting.

I don’t like my characters committing suicide, whether they are real or not and this is not yet very sure, even more so considering that psychopathetic lines do not allow the seizing of identifying elements we may call then ‘real’. Said simply, the only reality existing is an awareness inside of a determined language, saying ‘stories’ whose relationship to an outer reality can simply not be established.

If it is not possible to know whether ‘Sask’ exists or not, it is always possible to imagine a ‘therapy’, a logic allowing to get ‘Sask’ out of a logical knot that should be at the origin of a possible suicide. It saves my character.

(I’m sure one day I will get out of the depth the general unconscious and I had something to do I had said before which I can’t remember anymore.)

I was working at that. I had to save my character and was happily distinguishing layers of the conscious and the unconscious, inserted logics inside of more general logics and so on. At those times I was working with tones as means to transmit rationality and am building up a 5th refracted (I call it) whose ‘tone’ I will have to translate into grammatical structures if I ever write my novel.

I was making a speech that should sound serious on psychic layers when my consciousness is distracted by a ‘voice’ saying “I’m Leya”, as if ‘Leya’ was introducing herself inside of a possible interpretation of ‘layers’ in order to make herself audible. (You see? Sask does something in a wrong interpretation of ‘Andres’ and Leya appears as feedback of a horribly complicated contemplation on ‘layers’. They have something in common inside of the patterns of understanding.)

Leya tells me a few stories. She says she is a ‘chip’ and that she comes from ‘Japan’. (Japan can be a herodotian fixation of general structures of understanding.) She says she wants to do everything legally and that she’s going to go to the police for an affair of false passports. (I laugh: you’re going to the police? – If you do so, I’ll see you in Jerusalem in 2003.) Fixation of in codes of lines of communication: Mayflower.

Perfect. My character is saved from suicide simply because it won’t be able to resist to a passionate love affair inside of its own narcissistic structures. Image won’t count: a male does give more importance to what is outside than to what comes from inside. The perfect and ideal image of the somewhat boring inner relationship of oneself to oneself will certainly be much more attractive than its constant, inner presence. If an accident makes ‘Leya’ appear at the right moment at the right place it will fuse with ‘Sask’ inside of its own logical patterns of apprehension. The inner tension is substituted by an outer reality allowing the confrontation to its very reality and this may be at the origin of a question, eventually an answer.

‘Sask’ is not stupid, finally.

Now she is homosexual from the point of view of male and a happy heterosexual from the point of view of inner awareness. The question, once put, may be at the origin of an answer. And if the ‘male’ or ‘female’ were determined by inner structures and only accidentally by ‘outer attributes’? And I say accidentally because you will always be male if having these structures, while this very ‘male’ may appear inside of a female body or vice versa. Of course it explains homosexuality, but that’s really not the point although I’ll have to deal with that on the way, too.

My character has been saved from suicide because my character is very clever and just needed an outer ‘fact’ in order to start thinking, thing she had ommitted until then.

How real is ‘Leya’? I don’t know. She’s Japanese and thus in cultural knowledge of kamikaze tendencies, she builds up an order inside of a horrible mess, she appears in a confusion of concepts of psychic layers with her own name. She’s an ideal character, a perfect configuration, the only solution to my problem and that should be enough for the time being. You are not going to think ‘Leya’ is real? No. She results of the horrible effort of the construction of a solution for my character ‘Sask’.

Real ‘Sask’ if ever existing should never get involved in such subsidiary passionate love affairs. It simply does not fit the character. Except if she really is and runs into my hypothesis. Better watch out.

It’s true that I have developed intuitively my hypothesis a little bit more. Marcela Rodriguez, a Colombian psychologist I had met in 1982, had told me it were possible for some to ‘see’ things that were not related to them as if they were there, mostly under hypnosis. If this is true, then it is possible to think that intuition or psychic awareness can be transformed into visual coordinates through a determined logic. I’m searching ‘Sask’. What may this strange creature look like? Is it possible to transform a psychic character into visual coordinates? If it is possible I should know who ‘it’ is and consequently locate the one: the only proof it’d finally accept as such.

I must have been working at that, too. In 2002 I have already a whole number of pictures that should fix the character of Natasha, Hannah and … Sask. If ‘Sask’ is difficult to fix it is because ‘it’ does not associate itself to a determined physical appearance. And ‘Leya’? Well, she is Japanese.

Strangely there are others, too, who have nothing to do with my hypothesis, originally.

4. ‘Sask’s’ hypothesis is still at phase 2. It is true that Leya has avoided a kamikaze outburst that may push a nation whole towards suicide. But ‘Sask’ has now gone lost inside of a passionate and somewhat irrational relationship whose extreme ambivalence is not solved precisely because it has no social recognition, the only one ‘Sask’ would admit as such. Luckily ‘Sask’ will never know where I fished ‘Leya’ out of.

It is of need to create a social environment where at least some ‘men’ do admit the irregular presence of such peculiar creatures among them, thus imposing rules of behaviour and not movements of misbehaviour on the concerned, who will have to learn first about how horribly the custom of asking for marriage to the father of the beloved conditions even nowadays the low and heavy movements of men inside of social reality.

In fact, ‘Sask’ has become the perfect ‘joker’ inside of my own game. Having nothing but inner structures to determine behaviour it must push back some men’s pretensions you may root perfection on physical attributes. Reason enough to take carefully care of the person and even launch a generalization of the theory of the different structures of understanding in men and women.

Actually, there are many. I state that the more a man’s identity is fixed on physical appearance the more he has problems in sexual performance. The fact of having something else to rely manhood on, does create a secret and interesting, most reassuring realm of manhood, where even physical exercises become subsidiary.

The insertion of ‘Sask’ inside of this most tolerant realm will certainly not lead to an extravagant marriage but will cause a certain relief inside of the given structures of ordering reality and this will definitely save my character.

‘Sask’, the character, will break through this process the very close male lines and appear in fact like a little angel inside of the context I’m constructing, thing that has certainly little to do with reality.

I still don’t know whether ‘Sask’ exists but my novel is fascinating.

I had to verify a few things. What for? I don’t remember. It was linked to the novel whose exact contents are not fixed but in psychopathetic language. Is there a real need to verify anything? And if ‘Leya’ does not exist, will it take anything to the character? How horrible if she existed. You are certainly not going to believe she exists. No? No. Go then to be sure.

Unhappily they will all be there. Leya, Sask, Natasha, Li and even a whole lot of other characters who had nothing to do with the original hypothesis: Wilheim, Gazit, Shanee, Douna, Yusif. Now?

‘Hi, Leya, how do you do? Wanna coffee?’ — It’s Mayflower. The best thing you can do in circumstances where the irrational seems to substitute itself to the rational is to do as if the whole plot were true – there is no other way out: my mind has simply not worked out the possibility it could be true, and there is only a novel left.

“Dear Leya, here the payment for a service. Just find this psychic type for me and get the poor person out of a logical knot. ” “Does this person exist?” “I don’t know. If she doesn’t you’ll get it for free.”

Hm.

‘Sask’ appears a few weeks later. Natasha has already been there. It’s hot. When Li appears, I’m having coffee in the terrace.

Logically Leya appears a little later again. ‘Here, it must be that one.’ Leya leaves after 3 hours conversation in fluent psychic Japanese and I will never see her again.

I will never know whether my hypothesis affected reality. It saved my mind from madness, that’s for sure, and I may even say, Wilheim would believe each word of what I say – it’s what happens if you get into other people’s hypothesis without anyone’s permission.

But why was it so? To say, how was it ever possible?

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